They snatch me up in the lobby, two sweet friends, and just come out with it.
How can we pray for you today as a white mama of non-white babies?
I don’t know the answer, exactly.
But I do know that this, this right here, is church.
Asking the brave question, the question that sometimes feels like an elephant in a room full of ostriches.
And praying, standing with, even when the only words that seem right are
It’s hard enough for me to grapple with recent events as a follower of One who I see ever sweeping the edges, ever championing the underdogs, ever acknowledging great value in the ones marginalized by society.
But when it comes to my babies. The babies that I love, unquestionably, more than life itself.
Oh. Dear. Goodness.
I lose all rationality.
And also my mind. In your face. If you spew some foolishness that rings hollow in my mama-ears.
I settle into my chair after having church in the lobby.
I’ve been meaning to write about this for a while.
And here it is again.
…you were called to one hope when you were called… (Ephesians 4: 4)
The calling is simple.
Not easy, mind you. Sometimes very hard.
Love God. Love people.
The hope is real.
Not fully realized. Not always see-with-your-eyes-able.
Friends, I have no hope for the violence and hatred and ignorance and division I see.
Not love or unity or some inherent goodness of humanity.
Not gun control. Or mental health services. Or public policy of any kind.
Jesus is my one hope.
And so I will go on loving my babies. And trying also to tell them the truth.
And struggling with all of it.
And blessing the ones who ask the hard questions right there in the lobby.
The ones who pray without having the answers, without having the words at all.
The ones who know what it means to be church.